Life Choices.

This part of my life is called life choices. I am entering a new etapa in my life. Movement is healthy and inevitable but nonetheless often uncomfortable. I am feeling a rush of changes coming my way. I am in my fifth year of college, soon to obtain my Bachelors in Communications and Spanish and just as well polish off my minor in Art Studio: Photography.

 I have no plan.

Please stop asking me how many interviews I have lined up or where I picture myself living or what specific positions I am applying for. I do-not-know.

You see, there's no book, there are no real rules, there's no specific course of destiny lined out for me and so my choices are really molded by whether doing so "feels" right or not. However the problem with feelings is that they are subjective. You can ask others for their opinions on your choice or your feelings but you are the only one that can truly determine what is right or wrong for you. Shit, that's a lot of pressure. 

While I'm sitting on this pile of emotions that I'm not sure how to deal with, I am allowing the soulful voices of Joss Stone, Keyshia Cole, Adele and Aretha Franklin's Chain of Fools to speak to me and fill my ears and heart with joy. 

I realized today that there is not necessarily a right or wrong choice that you can make when choosing a path, either could bring you life lessons, joy, love,heartache, fulfillment and regret, either, both, and it is up to you to pick that which "feels" right. Where do you see yourself in 10 years, they asked us in our senior seminar class. 10 years? I am not sure where my life will lead me in 6 months let alone 10 years. I perhaps we should have goals though. I would like to be doing something that makes a difference in this world and helps others. I would like to be happy. I would like to be financially sound... whatever that means. 

Right or wrong. Good or bad. Left or right. Yes or no. I suppose that the beauty of not having one shaman is that there are actually many and it us up to me to think critically, to use my resources, to listen to anything and everything and everyone, to weigh and measure, to create my own conclusions based on the wisdom of those that have chosen their paths before us, those that are walking alongside us and the feelings in my heart as well as the soundness of my mind. Balance. I am seeking a balance between all of these. I should put out an ad on Craigslist, seeking the perfect formula for balance in my life to be able to make proper future life decisions, serious inquiries only. 

Thank you. 

Signed, 

Maria- a good intentioned, social justice fighting, love seeking, student of the world, searching for guidance. 

Also... this song made my day. <3  Soy Afortunado, y eso soy, afortunada, para tener las oportunidades que tengo, para tener el poder de poder escoger, por estar/ser educada, yo tengo un sueño que nada ni nadie se puede robar de mi.